Random Muses

2009-07-21T12:47:00.000+08:00

Things I want to get with a salary.
-Treat family out for dinner
-Treat Moopyka for lunch
-Pay off Karthrik
-Pay off library fines
-Buy/ Commission something from the loli comms
-Buy more cute fabric and lace

I'm a very simple person. XD

2009-07-15T23:54:00.003+08:00

I'm not dead. XD
Been buying things off the lj comms. Got myself
-Charles & Keith shoes
-Fox tube top
-C.O.A.X jacket
-Cute lil bag
-Orange Bear spag

I also got a OB tunic for my mom, who is surprised that she can find stuff her size online.

~ink

2009-06-13T13:18:00.001+08:00

I've been hanging out with P a lot recently. I miss Moo. I can't wait for Monday with Zan's kids and the picnic. ♥

Ilu Moopyka, aka P=IV

Look at my new headbow!

2009-06-01T18:51:00.000+08:00

私の新しいheadbowを見なさい!

http://pupe.ameba.jp/item/OQmG-JqL2UTm/pqHh4Wwipwuz/

Suteki and comment please!

~t

Lolita fashion is the best!

2009-05-29T13:40:00.001+08:00

Lolitaの方法はベストである!

I spent some time talking to HJ on fb about loli stuff. ^^
I'm making another bow now.

~t

I <3 Moo & P!

2009-05-28T11:39:00.002+08:00

私はMoo & Pを愛する!

Well, my Mero is making me update this just for the bonus. Gah! XD

Here, Sonata Arctica's song Shy. Its very soft and has no metal/rock riffs or whatever. I think. So just hit it up, all of you!

~t

I got a new obsession!

2009-05-27T17:52:00.003+08:00

私は新しい新しい固定観念を得た!

You see those two thingys at the side of my blog, to the right? They are my new obsessions! Pupe [the one with the girl] is a very very girly game. You dress up your pupe, buy her clothes and all that. It sounds boring.. but trust me.. its not.

The next one is my Mero! I named it Whitblod because Whiteblob was too long. :( I'm not sure about what to do with it yet, but its pretty cute! It will grow up in stages [or so I'm told] but its insanely cute anyway! The reason I have badly translated Japanese words at the top of my post is that it will learn words by my blog. *___* So cool right? I know! So I'm trying to get it to learn stuff.

~feeling vaguely happy again
~tiqa

YCSS

2009-05-26T12:33:00.004+08:00

I really miss my sec school days.

I miss being in band. Where I had friends that lasted, fun, and music. PJ band's alright lah, but I have NO sense of belonging there. I don't like half the people there and I'm sure they don't like me either. I loved YCSS. It sounds stupid, YC's a shitty school, with horrible reputation, a ~~falling down building~~ and a questionable principal... but.. I really loved that school. I loved sitting in school after classes. I love walking up and down the school, knowing every teacher and most of the students. I love greeting all the teachers as if they were my friends. I love seeing all my adorable juniors around. I love that the teachers help out in ANY way they can. I love the campus, with all its ghosts and weird freaky shit it has. I love laughing at the prinipal's speeches and actions.

But I find that I'm supposed to HATE yc, but I don't. I really love that school, with all its flaws. Maybe I'm the stupid one.

I miss my classmates, all of them. I miss talking to Banupriya about stupid shit, I miss kicking CS in the chair. I miss Andy's recap on subjects before an exam. I miss Sara going around with me everywhere, I miss Kamal's attempts at BSing other people. I miss PX, she's really very very cute, really. I miss Damien's poser-ing, it was cute in a way. I miss all of my classmates so much.

But its just so weird to talk to some of them. Banu has a bf, I don't know where the fuck Sara & Kamal went. The rest are just kinda weird to talk to on msn.

But I guess what made YCSS really memorable for me was my own Physics equation, P=IV.

Look, Moo has her curly hair, and P.. still looks gay. But still.

I'm really amazed that we're still friends. Maybe because most of my other friends never lasted this long to make a difference?

Eitherway, I'm really grateful for my physics equation and I hope that no one ever comes up with another formula to disprove P=IV. ♥ I can't wait for the June hols.

Here have a sexy song by Conception; the band that Roy S. Khan was in before Kamelot. Yes. He looks like a total idiot, but still. XD

~t

Marco, oh Marco.. and Khan.. Why are you two so fucking cool?

2009-05-17T20:09:00.008+08:00

Why are you so fucking hott in this vid? I just love the way you scream 'I wish I had an Angel' at the beginning of the song.. *sighs*

And yeah, my mom's still trying to get me to eat and all that.. No appetite...

And I so so so so so so want the 'END OF AN ERA' live DVD from Nightwish... *sighs*

Or failing that, I want Kamelot's 'GHOST OPERA'. I love the way they are slowly going into prog metal, their earlier albums sound weird.. especially without Khan on vocals.. Ah, Khan.. I just love the way your hands move in this vid. And that this vid is just so \m/ It just kicks ass. Totally, I love the lyrics, and I love the vid, and how fucking cool Khan is here.

~tiqa

Apparently...

2009-05-12T21:17:00.002+08:00

My mom thinks I'm anorexic because I haven't been eating lately.

I just have no appetite.

I think its because I've been sick, then haven't been eating, so then my stomach shrunk[?] and then now I get full very easily. Normally I'ld eat like four or five bowls of porridge [my favourite dish] before I'm full, but the other day I only ate half the bowl before feeling disgustingly full. >__>

I have no appetite for school either.

All I feel like doing is to pick up a needle and sew some beautiful clothes.

But what's the point if I don't have an education right? *shrugs*

2009-05-06T16:52:00.002+08:00

I totally hate myself for being so fucking depressed and suicidal on my best friend of all time's birthday.

Fuck everything. Fuck retarded malay class. Fuck retarded people who don't understand. Fuck retarded bitch sister. Fuck school in general. Fuck sickness and the flu. Fuck the fucktards who couldn't see that I was sick. Fuck idiots everywhere. Fuck all those all around me who can't see that I'm fucking fuck depressed. Wow. Is that such a HARD THING to pick up on!? Fuckers, the whole lot of you. Other than Moo, who is the awesome and all that.

I left this page open on my laptop FOR OVER A FUCKING HOUR WHILE I WENT TO THE DOCTOR BECAUSE NO ONE CARED ENOUGH THAT I WAS SICK.

http://www.depression.com/depression_questionnaire.html

To Moo, I'm really really sorry. Your pressie and all that celebrations will have to come later. I planned a lot. I just can't get the enthusiasm to do it.

~tiqa

2009-04-27T23:28:00.000+08:00

http://community.livejournal.com/daily_lolita/1697554.html

Be nice to me?

~ink

2009-04-02T16:16:00.002+08:00

I have to admit it. I love this video. I don't care what anyone else thinks. Mika is absolute win for making it. It may be tacky and whatnot, but I like it. The girls look great and not stick-thin-I'm-gonna-die-because-all-I-ate-today-was-half-a-spoon-of-soup. Jkjk, no offense to the naturally skinny girls there, I just can't stand those who starve themselves to fit into society's unrealistic expectations and critise others for not doing so.

~ink

2009-03-25T19:02:00.005+08:00

Well... Some time back the three of us went out to Esplanade. I can't remember why. Here. Have some piccys. I actually like them. :)

Moo and P got into a 'fight' Guess who won?

Then we took some shadow pics because it looked really nice. P looks like he's wearing a mini dress for some reason. XD

Gasp! Attiqah's camwhoring!

Gah! Must post something more NORMAL! Here, have a fish. KYAA! SO CUUUUUUUUUTE!!!!!!!

Okay. That's all. :)

~ink

2009-03-12T21:13:00.002+08:00

I wish there was somewhere I could talk about the sort of qualites that I like in a bf without people judging me.

For some reason I still hate it when people 'pair' me up with someone. Its fucking annoying. We're nearly adults now. Grow up. ~Says the person who loves lolita fashion.

I wish I could put a list of what I like in a guy and hope that some random person would read it and just ask to know me.

See, just by saying that, all of you people are going to judge me and lump me in with the despos. I still don't see any need for a bf.. but I'm just saying having one.. would be nice.

Shit, I need to get my head out from the despo-ness. Even if I don't feel that its despo. What's wrong with posting your feelings on your own blog? Its mine, fucktards.

~ink

2009-02-17T19:36:00.001+08:00

Signed out from school early today.

Taxi-ed home. Slept for five hours.

Still sniffing. I wonder if I can skip tomorrow as well.

Ramblings

2009-01-02T19:47:00.000+08:00

Today was the first day of the school term for primary and secondary schools. Kid went for his first day in school at Yuhua Sec, Tiku went for her first day as sec 4 in her Dunearn and I grumbled because I have to go to band at 9. XD JCs start on the 12th of Jan.

I remember my first day in primary school. The weird feeling of a shirt tucked firmly into my skirt; both of them oversized in antcipation of growth spurts. The maid at that time pulled the skirt over my head, and buttoned the shirt up for me. My shoes were the velcro sort, white and almost shiny with the chalk applied the last night. Bag was piled with all the schoolbooks I could carry, being the first kid, my parent's forgot that no teacher ever asks for books on the first day. Xd The school was dusty, with the afternoon sun coming in the windows and the fans barely moved the hot humid air around. My first teacher was Mrs Seetoh and she taught us Maths and English. Rules were explained, the metal rulers and cane for punishment displayed to us. I remember that metal ruler, I lived in abject terror of not handing in homework becuase of that. My batch was probably one of the that teachers could still physically punish students. Ear twists, hair pulls, and the dreaded-standing-on-tables was common; and I most probably got my fear of heights from standing on a table that fell apart on me. When I was primary 5 or so, the school merged with another and with the merger came a new school building, new principal, upgraded p.e equipment and loads of new classmates. The uniform was changed to a tucked out red blouse with a checkered skirt. I met the Taishou in primary 6 and we became friends over a mistaken Digimon/Pokemon character.

My first day in secondary school was strange. I exchanged my tucked out red blouse and comfy skirt for a white tucked in shirt, and a blue skirt that was decidedly less-poofy than my old primary school skirt. We spent a few hours going over the school rules. It was the same yadda yadda, no colored hair, hair that touches the collar must be tied up, no make-up, no tucked out shirts, skirts must not be shorter than knee length, regulated shirts must be worn for p.e lessons. I grow weary of listing down the examples, but they are mostly finnicky and overly detailed, and people would get bored. I know I got bored, a few hours listing down what we could and what we could not do, it was all I could do not to scream. These rules were not as closely adhered to as when I was in primary school, we were all pre-teens at that age, and we tried to push the limits. Skirts were just a few millimeters higher than the required ones, colored socks were worn in lieu of the school's white ones, fringes were grown as long as possible and clipped up as soon as the Mr Govind, the dicipline master walked by. Miss Lim was our form teacher and she taught us science and maths. I rather like her, she's so cute we bully her at times. ^^ I met the Konzen in secondary school, when we mutually had fun at the expense of CS, it was nothing serious, I don't think CS minded that much. We flicked eraser pellets in WHY's hair; yes, that IS his initials, and discussed anime. Mostly him telling me how awesome Shaman King was and I trying to get him to watch Saiyuki.

When I entered JC, it was just exchanging a set of uniform for another, skirts were tighter, more feminine, the blouse was fitted slightly and the rules were way more relaxed. I missed the Taishou and Konzen so much in the beginning of the year it hurt. I've never taken to new people easily and it was a long time before I could remember names from my class. The two Baos were the ones I hung around with, Bao Xian and Bao Xing, no relation. XD

JC was weird, the feel of newness permeated the air, with new buildings, new things and a new death. GYkun had left me cryong for a week or so, and I still miss her.

That's how my school life at PJ started. Well, its not bad all in all, met Dan, Li Boon, Michelle and as well as finally met up with Karthrik IRL. Another year then. ♥

~tiqa
Music: The Black Halo album by Kamelot. I ♥ this so so so much!!!

2008-12-27T21:48:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow I have a board games meet up thingy with a few of my friends. I'm trying not to get too excited about it, because, well, when you get excited about things, they never really turn out the way you expect them to. Or maybe its just me, maybe I just expect too much from people. But its only as much as what I would expect from myself. So maybe I expect too much from myself? Hmn.. well.. I have no idea. Maybe I'll ask the Taishou. She should know.

Like how she knows her way around, even without any calls to parents ~~or Zan~~ ever so often, or how she has that ability to cheer me up anytime, even sometimes when she's the cause of my being depressed/ angry/ pissed off.

I try not to be too excited or happy that she's my best friend sometimes too. I mean, what if the same logic for being too hopeful for something also applies to her. Well, it applied fuck well to a lot of other people. Its like what if one day we drift apart and I'll be all alone? And she'll be married to someone Note; I do not ever intend to get married. Guys are really retarded and they only seem to go after the girls who look pretty now, will turn out horrible a few years later. Not that I'm pointing any fingers at people who ARE in a relationship now, but the success stories I've heard are way submerged under the stories of being cheated on and whatnot. *shrugs*, and she'll be all happy with her husband and have many cute adorable kids and I'll be.. somewhere. Yeah, just.. somewhere. I don't know, Singapore? US? France? Germany? I don't know. But I'll be.. somewhere...

But if that day comes, when I wake up to realise that I'm all alone, I'll just take it. Like I always have when someone does that to me. Its a terribly easy pain to take and ignore, but it gets harder each time.

Hmn. Well, gonna be semi-happy about the board games thingy tomorrow! ^_____^

~tiqa

Here, have a nice video that my GP teacher showed us to show the 'VIOLENCE IN MEDIA' thing. I laughed so hard I cried.

Update get!

2008-12-15T10:11:00.001+08:00

I'm making something for the Taishou. Not gonna tell you what it is! :P

EOY piccys will come later. Here, have a very nice song that will NEVER get out of your head.

2008-11-15T17:16:00.003+08:00

You guys wanna know something? A secret?

I love this song so much. Its so sappy and romantic and and.. I just melt when I hear it. Elvis's face is just so eww, but the lyrics of his song just reaches out to me. Sigh.. If I ever have a BF, I wish that he'll sing this song to me on special days. Just not in public. Because you know, its kinda funny to listen to metal then suddenly admit that you like this. I guess I do have a girly side after all.

Love me tender,
Love me sweet,
Never let me go.
You have made my life complete,
And I love you so.

Love me tender,
Love me true,
All my dreams fulfilled.
For my darlin I love you,
And I always will.

Love me tender,
Love me long,
Take me to your heart.
For its there that I belong,
And well never part.

Love me tender,
Love me dear,
Tell me you are mine.
Ill be yours through all the years,
Till the end of time.

(when at last my dreams come true
Darling this I know
Happiness will follow you
Everywhere you go).

Love me tender by Elvis Presley

~t

2008-11-08T20:26:00.000+08:00

Just went out with the Taishou.

Gah! The last time my feet ached this badly after going out with someone was when the Konzen dragged us out to buy a white shirt. We went out at 7.30 am and returned around midnight. All that time for a white shirt. Slaps P.

So the Taishou got her grad stuff, and I'm supposed to make her mask for her; the theme of her grad night is Masquerade.

So the Konzen, the Taishou and I went over to Zan's place yesterday. It was fun seeing those two munchkins of hers, and we drank a whole load of Ribena. Zan's family tree is awesome *___*

One last thing, I'm repeating a year in my junior College. And I'm forced to change to the Arts stream. That means that I would be taking H2 Maths, Econs and China Studies and H1 Literature. I dropped Physics, even though I really like the subject, I just cannot follow the lecturer, and I got a 1% overall for that subject. Man, that does really suck.

Music: I Don't Care by Apocalyptica

Who will trade his karma for my kingdom

2008-11-05T22:01:00.000+08:00

PW is finally fucking over. FINALLY FUCKING OVER!! *dances*

And I am so hooked onto this band, called Kamelot. Only for those metal fans though, don't go and listen and complain to me that you don't like it because of the drums or guitar. Yes, I am looking at you, Aisyah. 8*

Who can tell me what the song is about? Come on, practice those inference skillz!

Karma by Kamelot

I am a king of honor
gold and glory
but every king must also die
have I been just and righteous
what is glory
I know I've torn and taken life
and here I standa small and simple man

who will trade his karma for my kingdom
a sacrificial rite to render truth
the fire in my soul rejects my wisdom
cause all you do in life comes back to you

I am a king in crisis
counting minutes
there is an ending to my reign
my sins have come to face me
I can feel it
that I have lived my life in vain
and now I know I'll reap
the seeds I've sown

who will trade his karma for my kingdom
a sacrificial rite to render truth
the fire in my soul rejects my wisdom
cause all you do in life comes back to you

am I mad
I feel so void and cold
who can tell
who holds the stories untold
tired and trembling
I am descending
will I have to stay here
and live this life again

Hint hint, I want the album Epica and The Black Halo for my Bday. I will LOVE anyone who gets me that. *grins*

~t

Can you remember? Tell me how far I have to go.

2008-10-29T12:02:00.000+08:00

Family and I went to Times Book sale two days ago. Restrained myself and only bought four new books. Two fantasy, one about the Roman Empire and only one war account on a battle that apparently happened in Singapore waters before the Japanese Occupation. I'm looking forward to reading that one, will move it up on my to-read list. Everyone in my family got about 4-5 books, so we got a nicely rounded collection of fantasy, romance, teen-ish, dinosaurs and thrillers. I also got a laptop bag, because I destroyed my sister's bag and I need a new one. And also a new pencilcase. Its white and has Engrish ramblings on the word 'Eccentric' on it. ^__^

Feeling vaguely happy today, I don't know why. Fanfic writing has been slow, its hard to write 10K when you have a tankobon with Tenpou staring at you as if to say "You better write me in character, bitch." Its like writing about the principal while in her office or something like that. I guess I have to take it down if I ever want to write. Or at least move it somewhere else.

Things to do.

`Magically find places for the new books on over-loaded bookshelf.
`~~Clean room~~ I have said it before and I will say it again, clean floors are NOT natural.
`Remember to sleep at 'normal-people-time'. People keep on telling me that 3am is not normal-people-time. Well, they all must be weird or something like that then.

~t

Title: Can You Remember by Kamelot

Blessed with an eye to see things as they are, will you draw me?

2008-09-01T05:25:00.000+08:00

Well today is the first day of fasting.

Yesterday I stayed up late to do my bookshelves and I was aware of things. Not like as in the Hungry Ghost Festival things, those are kinda creepy and sad. But things, they are watching, and the feeling I get is of... I dunno, benovelance and kindness. I saw a few shadows where there shouldn't be, a sudden change of atmosphere at strange times.

Its already past the time permitted to eat. And I dunno why, but I feel really great. Refreshed and clean inside.

Happy fasting to all the muslims out there. And for the non-muslims, I bet you guys are happy that the canteen lines are shorter for this whole month.

~t

Music. Draw Me By Sonata Arctica

See that girl, see that thing, being the Dancing Queen!

2008-08-25T01:00:00.000+08:00

My mom asked me to paint the library area.

That means taking the books out from the bookshelves and putting them somewhere.

Tell me, when faced with that kind of situation, who in their right mind can resist stacking them up to see if its possible to balance them all the way to the ceiling? This is the kind of situation my Taishou was supposed to avert, but sadly, she was not there and they fell on me a number of times. ^^ Speaking of which, second bookshelf is leaning at a 45 degree angle.

*flashback*Dad: This bookshelf seems to be a bit unstable. It is okay as long as we never ever move it from this position..*/flashback*

Hmnm, that explains a lot.

Quote from my sister regarding the women's soccer between Canada and China. We were saying that the game was kinda unfair because the Canadieans were so much taller and bigger than the Chinese and thus this classic quote came out.

'Yeah lah, but the chinese people are shorter, so they defy gravity'.

I really wonder if I am related to her. ^^

~t

Music. Don't tell me you don't know this song? >__>

Wake Me Up When September Ends

2008-08-11T11:49:00.000+08:00

I got my award thingy from the school last Friday. It was... okay. I can't really describe how I feel about it, not happy actually but more of a 'whatever' sorta feeling. Anyway, piccys are under the cut, the first one is my friend Banu, she got the top. Second is Andy, he was valedictorian and the last is me, hoping not to look too stupid in PJ's formal uniform. After the ceremony, I had to rush back to PJ for an Econs lecture. >__> But after that I went off to West Mall for another D&D session. So it all evens out. ^^

And this is Moo and I. I love ya Moo. ^_____^ Even though that sounded slightly creepy and lesbian-ish.

I still think I look like an idiot, but at least it is over and done with. ^^Court shoes SUCK SO MUCH!! I was limping all the way to West Mall for the D&D session. Y__Y

And lastly, my sister and I just finished painting our room and rearranging the furniture. ^^ It is now a cool lime green, but it looks yellow in the piccys. >_> I think I post piccys later on, when we finish doing all the minor details like our posters!

Hope you all are doing okay! Now back to work! ^^ Hmn, for some reason, photobucket is not being nice to me. It is suddenly displaying in... what I think is German... >___>

~t

Music. ... Isn't it obvious?

The weight of water, the way you taught me to look past everything I have ever learned.

2008-08-03T01:35:00.000+08:00

We painted the living room today.
^_______^

Piccys will come later.

~t

-Make this go on forever by Snow Patrol-

nande? do-shite? PINCHI! share ni nannai

2008-07-20T18:18:00.000+08:00

First of all.

I love Moo the Taishou, I love her so much that it hurts.

Now that we are done with the so-lesbian-that-its-scary declaration, lets see what I have to say.

Family and I went to the library sale today. We spent $180 on books and we ended up with 77 books and 40+ magazines. ^____^ You know how I am like with my books. Now we just need to find a place to put them.

Tomorrow Daniel and his friends are coming over for a D&D gaming session. I'm pretty exicited, I can't wait to see what would happen.

I don't really know when I am going to update my blog. Its gonna be pretty random. I'll update when I feel like it! :b

~t

Music: Galaxy Bang! Bang! by Angel-Tai.

Bound at every limb by my shackles of fear, Sealed with lies through so many tears.

2008-07-04T23:23:00.000+08:00

Today Ma told us that I can't go out on Monday because the family is going to the beach.

Fuck.

I was REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY looking forward to the board games cafe meeting. I mean I was wishing that the weekend would go faster so that Monday would be here sooner.

But if I tell Ma that I would prefer to go out, then she'll give me that injured-you-prefer-your-friends-to-us face.

I'm watching Scrubs to cheer myself up.

~t

Title, Lies by Evanescence

Should I Dress In White and Search The Sea?

2008-07-02T19:24:00.000+08:00

Today was fun! ^^
Daniel, his friend Lee Boon and I went to the Settlers Cafe shop thingy at Holland V. It wsa uber fun!

We played so many board and card games! I went there with Lee Boon and we waited there for about 40mins before the student deal started at 2pm. We played Balloon Cups, Once Upon A Time and Loot. ^^

Once Upon A Time was just telling stories based on the cards you have. You have to try and twist the ending to your own one to win. The stories that we came up with were so stupid! For example.

There was once an old man, who was thrown in prison bacause he had a frog. The frog owned a castle. The old man was chased by a monster because he was living under a set of stairs that led to a kitchen where he found his stepmother.

It goes on and on like that. ^^

We are looking for more people to go again this Monday!

~t
Title, Ocean Soul by Nightwish

Come someone make my heavy heart light, Come undone bring me back to life

2008-06-30T23:13:00.000+08:00

Went to the SGtoy and comic con.

It was... blah. I found it overly crowded, and so most of the time, I just stood there with my arms crossed cursing crowds. The cosplay con was, okie. I found EOY to be better. ^^

My sister dressed as a sorta neko-thingy and my taishou put on some bunny ears to accompany her.

I was at the side of the stage, thus the piccys look a bit weird.

Cloud. He looks like he's wearing a dress...

Roy Mustang. I met this guy before, in NP.

Watanuki. She was really in character. ^___^

I'm not sure who this guy is, but his costume was made of pure awesome. Pure awesome.

Naruto and someone else. Sorry for the bad piccy quality. This was a photo of the screen. Couldn't get a clear shot.

The Taishou and my sister's friend STALKED this guy, the one on the right, all the way to the bathroom and back again. Several times.

And here are some more piccys of the Taishou and my sister being the cute bunny and kitty they are. ^^ Piccy of me? Later lah, if anyone asks for it. :p

I am feeling sick, fevery and blah. I'm gonna sleep soon. So, later then!
~tiqa

Title, The Escapist by Nightwish

This is me, for forever, one of the lost ones.

2008-06-26T22:54:00.000+08:00

I have a blog.
This is it.
This is for all the stuff that is too wangsty to go in my LJ.

~t
Title song. Nemo by Nightwish