Tomorrow I have a board games meet up thingy with a few of my friends. I'm trying not to get too excited about it, because, well, when you get excited about things, they never really turn out the way you expect them to. Or maybe its just me, maybe I just expect too much from people. But its only as much as what I would expect from myself. So maybe I expect too much from myself? Hmn.. well.. I have no idea. Maybe I'll ask the Taishou. She should know.
Like how she knows her way around, even without any calls to parents or Zan ever so often, or how she has that ability to cheer me up anytime, even sometimes when she's the cause of my being depressed/ angry/ pissed off.
I try not to be too excited or happy that she's my best friend sometimes too. I mean, what if the same logic for being too hopeful for something also applies to her. Well, it applied fuck well to a lot of other people. Its like what if one day we drift apart and I'll be all alone? And she'll be married to someone Note; I do not ever intend to get married. Guys are really retarded and they only seem to go after the girls who look pretty now, will turn out horrible a few years later. Not that I'm pointing any fingers at people who ARE in a relationship now, but the success stories I've heard are way submerged under the stories of being cheated on and whatnot. *shrugs*, and she'll be all happy with her husband and have many cute adorable kids and I'll be.. somewhere. Yeah, just.. somewhere. I don't know, Singapore? US? France? Germany? I don't know. But I'll be.. somewhere...
But if that day comes, when I wake up to realise that I'm all alone, I'll just take it. Like I always have when someone does that to me. Its a terribly easy pain to take and ignore, but it gets harder each time.
Hmn. Well, gonna be semi-happy about the board games thingy tomorrow! ^_____^
~tiqa
Here, have a nice video that my GP teacher showed us to show the 'VIOLENCE IN MEDIA' thing. I laughed so hard I cried.
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